So....like wth

I haven't drawn anything in ages and i dunno why, i'm just finding better things to fill my day with. I'm now scared of drawing or something, i'm not quite sure what it is. All i really know is that my life is so fucked up right now and i just keep disappointing myself over and over again.

So yeah gotta get up in 3 hours cause my flatmates gf has to go drop their car off to get fixed or some shit and i have to go in my car so i can give her a ride back.

Wait... why am i doing this? Because i'm nice and don't mind helping them out.

Wait... why the fuck am i not asleep? Because i'm simply retarded. I was out the welfare place yesterday and the lady looked at me and said 'so you're 21 and you haven't really had a job that can be put down on paper, what do you want to do?' i shrugged, if i knew what the fuck i wanted to do i'd have a fucking job and have a fucking life. Which i don't. So yeah that's how that happens.

Wait... why don't i have a girlfriend? well..it's pretty simply really, why would i ask myself something so stupid. Gah.

FML